8 hours ago
Honestly, before you came along all I knew was darkness. Now, with you gone, I am back in it. I no longer reach out to people. No longer trust people. I am on my own. Maybe this is just my fate. Maybe this is just what I deserve. Some twisted type of punishment for all the mistakes I have made.
I have never felt so empty before. Hell, even alcohol doesn't help rid the urge to kill myself. But, I don't want to be one of those people. Those people that gave up. I don't want to be a statistic. A percentage. A quitter.
I just hate that whoever I talk to, talks back, like fuck i just want you to hear me out. Just fucking hear me out and comfort me. That's all I want.
I am not someone who can save someone else. I want to be saved. I am not...I am not as strong as I look. I wish people would stop thinking that I can save them. I can't. I can't even save myself. I need help... and the only person that could keep me feeling again is gone. That shit always happens.
I feel like I have finally found happiness and before I can finally ease into it, it vanishes without warning.
I am done. I am done trying to find that one person. Fuck everyone. Fuck all of you. I am done with humanity. With bonding. I will survive. I will fight. On my damn own.
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