Perfectionism. AHH. There’s this quote by Anne Quindlen, “The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself.”
For me, it’s been really challenging not having perfect numbers. At the same time, I’m not setting myself up for success. Falling victim to self-sabotage over here. 😫 I admit: I’m not counting my carbs. I’m guessing and entering it into my PDM. I’m eating fast-acting carbs and letting my sugar spike. Yeah I’m not really taking care of myself. It’s weird because when I was diagnosed I was being SO perfect. It’s like when you start any new diet right? The first time it’s kind of new and exciting lol. But then you realize it’s not going away. AGAIN, it’s a lifestyle change not a temporary fix. It’s hard to come to terms with that. I‘ve had to mentally remind myself, “Trying is better than sabotaging. Progress, no matter how small it is, is better than not trying at all.”
There’s this really amazing book by @brenebrown called “The Gifts of Imperfection” and let me just say — it was the first personal growth book I read and the amount of takeaways I received SHOCKED me.
But let me tell you why, there’s a correlation between shame and perfectionism. She says “Where perfectionism exists, shame is always lurking. In fact, shame is the birthplace of perfectionism. [...] Perfectionism is not about healthy achievement and growth. It’s the belief that if we live perfect, look perfect, and act perfect, we can minimize or avoid the pain of blame, judgement, and shame. It’s a shield. Perfectionism is a twenty-ton shield that we lug around thinking it will protect us when, in fact, it’s the thing that’s really preventing us from taking flight.”
So instead of saying “Ugh. My numbers are terrible. I’m ashamed of myself. I need to be better than I am now to be accepted.”
Say this: “I want this for me. I want to feel better and be healthier. The numbers don’t dictate if I’m loved or accepted. If I believe I’m worthy of respect now, I will invite courage, compassion, and respect. I want to figure this out for me. I can do this.” ❤️