Hi, I’m Angie. I hate pictures of myself. My smile is my least favorite part of myself and I’ll often hide it when I can. Yet I love this silly picture.
You see, what a lot of people don’t know is this has been the hardest year of my life. Watching helplessly as my strong, vivacious and only daughter struggles to eat ANYTHING without constant pain- losing weight, trying to maintain any sense of normalcy - fighting for the energy to just get through a typical school day, feeling less than #beautiful because her chemotherapy treatment is making her break out in a rash. Nothing like what her Junior year of High School should be.
I’m blindly trying to learn as much as I can so, me, the painful #introvert, can stand up as her only #advocate against the school -protecting her rights and make doctors hear her and push to make this world accept my daughter’s #invisibleillness - I hate #crohnsdisease - it keeps me awake at nights, like now, tossing and turning until I’ll eventually give in to exhaustion in the wee hours just to wake up and do it again.
I feel helpless so this is IG account is my unlikely outlet. I redecorate again and again, rearranging and reimagining this space to take my frustration out on. These are my little pictures of calm before the storm. The one piece of my world that I can control because there’s nothing in my world I feel I *can control. It’s silly, yet here I am. And this gal, my #bff is my sanity saver...Make me laugh, let me cry, my venting bud, for all my screaming at God like Lt.Dan in Forrest Gump moments. My don’t judge me as I stress eat queso and hate myself for putting on a few (ahem) extra pounds. You are awesome @cowan_tonya - thanks for being my person. •
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