4 days ago
I’ve been contemplating whether to post this or not. But I feel like this needs to be said. I was afraid to post this photo because of how this was my meal. The meal I only left a few tortilla chips. You see, I feel like this was a lot to eat to myself even though it was tapas. I was so excited for the vegan food yet after it came guilt hit me like a ton of bricks. Whenever I post on here, I find myself comparing everything. My body, food, presentation. I’m so FUCKING tired of seeing people live off a rice cake and tell me how good eating feels. My heart cannot take thin, pretty people telling me to love myself when I can never live up to standards. I feel greedy and drained but I don’t want to live the rest of my life in hell because of an extra calorie. I may have had a look online at the calories of this before hand but I ate... REAL BLOODY DELICIOUS FOOD. Proper portion because I deserve to eat. This community should not be a competition of who eats the least or who can be the skinniest. I am sick enough to deserve help, my body deserves food and my soul deserves happiness again. I may not have been hospitalised or been on a feeding tube but it’s a mental illness and I’m trying my best to recover. Life’s to short to count your cornflakes. Thank you!
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This was bbq jackfruit nachos, bbq cauliflower and guac & salsa wedges :)